Hey there everyone!
I apologize I've been completely absent for a while but it's because I've been embarrassed of my lack of success. When you're trying to change as much as I have it's very easy to fall back, feel overwhelmed and lose motivation when everything is not going perfectly. So, I basically gained the small amount of weight I lost back over the last couple of weeks mostly due to letting myself go crazy on the weekends and not eating as well in the evenings as I should be. I am still doing really well with keeping a healthy diet during the day during the work week but have found myself over-indulging at night and on weekends. However, over the last week, I wasn't perfect, but still did pretty well and actually lost 6 pounds in 5 days without even working out. So that's pretty cool and actually gave me a little boost of confidence which is also good. I think my biggest problem is that I'm finding it very hard to believe in myself which in turn has really taken a toll on my will power. But I also really haven't committed completely to myself. It's just so much easier in the short term to fail myself, ya know? Anyway, what I really want you all to know is that I really am trying...I mean really. And I feel like I'm failing you all as well so far, which is very hard for me to think about. But the solution is so easy, right? Yes and no. I know what I need to do and just need to do it while also remembering that it's not supposed to be easy. Also, I need to continue to remind myself that had I done this in the first place I'd be 130 pounds lighter and wouldn't have 130 pounds to lose...I would just be maintaining. Anyway, at the very latest I will report back next weekend. My plan for this week is to start working out again, even if it's only for 10 minutes every day. I love you all and thank you for your continued support. Have a good night!
